So many days have passed....

I have no idea where to begin. Feeling the monumental change in my life and decided to search for this old blog again. Wow. To read words that I had forgotten I wrote is......shocking? over-whelming? astonishing? mind-boggling?

A few days after that last post everything changed. Slowly, life started rotating and has not stopped it's circular motion since. Though, it arguably started changing by leaps and bounds in April 2008. I am stable. I am happy. Most days. Haha. I have moved away from Hell and back to my true HOME. I have just landed a wonderful job and look forward to beginning my new (and, might I add, final!) employment chapter. I live with my soulmate. The indecisive, unattainable, bubble-boy. Mr. Emotional Constipation himself.

I think that things will keep progressing for us. He longs for a wife and babies. I must admit that I long for the "Mrs." title with his surname following. And babies. HIS babies. God, how things have changed..... In my old life, my control-freak marriage and main role as mom, I lost me. And there was absolutely NO hope of bringing my true self back to the surface. I had drown. 20 times, at least.

After 17 years of being at the bottom of the pond, I feel saved. Not without struggle. Not without pain. And maybe some divine intervention. Thanks, Mom......I miss you!